So much to say - I feel like DMB

I love linking up with Shell's Pour You Heart Out. It's a safe place to say whatever I want without worrying about being judged or criticized. I may not link up every week, but the weeks where I do I always have a specific thing that I need to get off my chest. This week I just don't know where to start. It feels like there is so much going on. Too much.

I have a resale event coming up in 2 weeks and I really need to get my ass in gear with getting everything together. But I just don't have it in me. Because of certain policy changes, I swore I wasn't going to participate this time around. In the end I decided "just once more". I'm regretting that decision. The money I will get at the end isn't even motivating me at the moment.

Add the resale stuff to returning from vacation and having a to-do list not even 24 hours later and I may lose my mind. Not only do I have to unpack, but I have so much I want to get done around the house. School is starting in a few weeks so I have to get the kids ready for that. Our Girl Scout year will be starting soon as well and we have to plan that out. Phone calls to make, emails to reply to, doctor appointments to go to... I may go insane.

All of this is probably why I completely freaked out the other night over the sweater I am making. I have put in a good 4 hours on a certain section of it. Monday night I realized I completely screwed it up. Do I continue and hope I can make the proper adjustments? Or do I rip those 4 hours of work out and redo them? I ended up ripping out all of that section and starting doing it over. I admit I cried a few times over something so silly as a sweater.

I know I will get through this. At least I hope I can. I have so many other things to worry about. Yes, there's more than the freak out I just rambled about. I guess it's a good thing that I'm not some big shot blogger. I'm not sure I could handle the fame. Although sometimes I think I might not mind it so much.

I think I'm done rambling. For now anyway. If you made it this far, thanks.

Pour your heart out


Oka said...

This time of the year takes me on a whirlwind too. Add in some major changes and worrying about my mother and I am a complete mess. My summer "mothereing" has been lacking all summer, I bet my kids would of preferred staying in school this year.

Kmama said...

I'm stressed out too. There is so much going on, especially this week. I'd like to say it'll get better for me, but that won't happen until about mid September.

Just typing that out stresses me out more.


Shell said...

This is such a crazy busy time of year- I keep thinking that it will get better after these next few weeks, but I think I'm fooling myself.

The sweater sounds like it was just the last straw. I hope you get some time to breathe soon.

Babes Mami said...

Its not something stupid to cry over. You spent a lot of time and were justifiably upseg.