15 years

15 years it has been since I've last seen your face
The last words you spoke were full of concern
over a friend that you did not approve
The last words I spoke were tumultuous and hurtful

They say you can prepare when you know what is coming
But you never really can

For years I watched my mom struggle
While I stayed silent
My words, they were eating me up inside

I remember that day as if it were yesterday
The friend who came to deliver the message
The man who would not let me leave class
I stood up and walked out
My head held high
I knew what was waiting when I arrived back at the house

I had a choice to stay home, because we knew what was coming
As a teenager my life was already in a whirl
I needed a sense of normalcy
While I waited for what was to come

15 years it has been since I have last seen our face
15 years I have lived with those words inside
I know you left with peace in your heart
15 years it took for that peace to enter mine

I'm linking this post to Shell's Pour Your Heart Out.


Shell said...

I'm so sorry for your loss.

Elizabeth Flora Ross said...

This is beautiful, though I am sorry you had reason to write it. Thank you for sharing a piece of your heart with us.

Boobies said...

I'm so sorry. :(

This was beautifully written. All my hugs!

Adrienne said...

Stopping by from Shell's PYHO. This is a beautiful post. I'm sorry for loss and heartache.

Just Another Mom of 2 said...

Stopping by from Shells- I'm so sorry for your loss.